March 30, 2005
I really love the way my life is leading...
For almost a year I've been going to sleep in frustrated mood and waking up in tears(well, not everyday of course). How great?! I think I'm a very "sut by" person...I really tried so hard to let go...but it keeps on haunting me back...everytime i thought i'm thorough w/ it...it comes back...sometimes i don't understand why my heart doesnt listen to my mind...sometimes I want the "old" me to come back so I could care less abt everything else...sometimes i don't understand why some ppl are so self-centered/selfish...maybe they are brought up this way who knows...sometimes i don't understand what it is that i'm living for...sometimes i don't know why things didn't work out the way as i thought they would be...sometimes i wonder will i ever be able to forget...i'm so worried i'll be like this forever...so many questions in my boring, lonely, useless life...maybe i should end it sooner...just j/k..hahah i will never go to that route...anyways, me finish ranting have a nice day.
if u have read this far, i want to say thank you for being here w/ me.